[Scourge]

DAMN. I've been trying to think of anything that was left out by all the others, but it's all been pretty much covered, so I'll just add a word or two. First off, it sucks, but with time and support it will get better. Don't applologize to yourself or anyone else for your feelings. You have no control over those and that's just the price of being human. The actions you take because of your feelings are totally in your control, but there is no need to act right now. You have all the time you need to come to grips with this so don't fret about riding again, it will come. The nightmares will recede and you will "move on", but like Rowdy said this in one of those things that will forever stay w/ you and that's OK. If you remained Nevanerviss after something like this then you would probably be inline for some serious counciling, but turning into Supernerviss for a while is normal. Councilling isn't a bad idea though, gettin a 3rd person perspective on the whole affair, from someone trained to deal w/ such things isn't a sign of weakness, i'ts a sign of intelligence. We all have our limits.

You have to do what's best for you and that kid of yours (give her a hug from me by the way for being such a good one). You'll get through this. It may not seem like that right now, but like I said w/ time and some help it will get better. Good luck to ya chickadee, and if you need anything from the board, all you have to do is shout. We are ALL here for you.